I've seen this show before, a tender heart forever aching. Everything I own is either broken or it's breaking. But I stay optimistic because I'm free in my endeavors. Perception is my curse, all these faults made self-aware. When it all falls down I know exactly who to blame.
I n my life, I have given a fuck about many people and many things. I have also not given a fuck about many people and many things. And those fucks I have not given have made all the difference. Holy shit, that dude does not give a fuck. Man, that guy does not give a fuck. Chances are you know somebody in your life who, at one time or another, did not give a fuck and went on to accomplish amazing feats.
The inevitability of aging has never sat well with me. As someone that likes to argue, charm, and otherwise wriggle her way out of every sticky situation, the non-negotiable truth that I too would age and deteriorate has always terrified me. In my early thirties, I found myself in a very different place in life than I had planned — alone with a small child.
What I want is to be happy. I love how it rolls off my tongue. I want my kids to be happy and successful. Their success is not a reflection of mine.